Over the years of my recovery from childhood (and adulthood) trauma, I have met hundreds of people with dissociative disorders. I learned that I am not alone in my experiences. Neither are you.
You can call me Flowers! I am a queer, transgender person who was diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder (DID) and posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD). My dissociative system once contained a large amount of parts, both distinct and rudimentary, organized into complex patterns. In 2022, we integrated into one cohesive whole. It wasn't an easy journey. To this day, every part of me is still continuing to recover from the impact of complex trauma and dissociation.
On this website, I hope to share my stories and advice. Unfortunately, complex dissociative disorders are heavily stigmatized and frequently misunderstood. People with these diagnoses frequently struggle to receive the appropriate care due to a lack of training or acceptance in mental health care. On top of this, we are often stigmatized by the media and disbelieved by the general public.
I hope that sharing my experiences will help fellow survivors feel seen and less alone. I also hope that it will help destigmatize what I feel are very natural responses to trauma. Society needs to know that we are just regular people who have been hurt and are trying to heal. Nothing more, nothing less.
(This is a work-in-progress page. More will be added soon! Last updated on 10. November 2023)